well as hard as it was to come out from my mouth... i said it... and it took an entire cup of bubble tea for it to come out... so it was actually quite hard, but sometimes no matter how much you want to hold someone, you need to let them go...
if we weren't a good match then we're not a good match... didn't see each other for 3+ weeks, and the best we could do was to muster some small chit chat... but then i guess at that point it was kinda late... just things i question about us in a relationship... and truthfully i couldn't put my finger on it, but i felt something was a little off with her, but like i said, couldn't put my finger on it...
well i think being away from someone for a while definitely gives you a different perspective on things... it wasn't like i didn't miss her on the trip, but just that, maybe this is my fault more than anything, is that when out of sight, out of mind. I have almost zero attention span...
i dont want to blame it on anyone, but when i got to HK, when i saw vinci again, the flame was truely gone... and it was a little bit sad at first too, but then i guess thats what time does... make even very vivid memories fade away... i think my fling with cora was more or less jump started by vinci. not saying that i didn't have any feelings for cora, but for the longest time those feelings did not sum up to anything, and as best as vinci described it, she was the little spark in my life at that time...a spark that burnt brightly, but only for a brief moment... in that brief moment, it made me want to hold on to more..... its true that when it comes, there is nothing that can be done...
in the end, i'm the one who makes the choices... letting you go may turn out to be the biggest mistake i've ever made, maybe its just the wrong timing, or that the time has already passed... but i can only go forward, even if it means driving with one eye in the rear view mirror, i'll always be going forward....
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