Little did I know...

well it seems as though I will have to be a hypocrite and go back on my last post... sorta...

when something feels like it that was the one thing you've always wanted, but when the time comes for you to go and take it... you just dont want to take the steps to get it... that something you've been wanting for so long and now it turns out that there are so many things missing... even the most complete and perfect diamond, there will be flaws...

so am i looking for something that is completely perfect? no... maybe i just want something that i do not know, something that gives me a motivation to learn more about... or maybe i just dont want to take the chance to fail... as all of a sudden, the cards seem to have been stacked against me...

anywho, without rambling on, i think its best we part ways... he was perfect according to you, and you were perfect according to me not too long ago too...

everyone deserves new beginnings, maybe we need to begin to be friends... from the beginning again?

recurring thoughts....

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_NRf4HQw4MU

it started with this MTV...made me realize that we need to cherish what we have...because we never know what tomorrow brings, it is better to have memories than to not have any at all...

so new years resolution for 2010... go get it, don't hold back... and let everything else fall into place!

on a similar note, it had this dream... it felt familiar as I've had this dream before, but somehow it felt that by the end of the dream, i realized that i've had the dream before and something change at the end. The closest thing to describe it is remembering thoughts from a previous life you lived... then realizing its too late to change whats happening now... almost like we're string puppets controlled by fate...