umbrella friend...

coined new term... umbrella friend... friends who either are there to support you willingly or you will automatically turn to them when things are down

they will always be there for you when you are sad, but when you are happy, they will not be able to share your laughter...

umbrella friends are a rare breed...



i dont know if its a blessing to be an umbrella friend of someone... so due to the indecisiveness.... i think i rather not be a friend... and close this chapter completely...

need to do it, or else more pain will come in the future...

盧巧音 - 三角誌

沒有這件事　妨礙我們
難道我和你　又會一樣
就算不是她　也有問題吧
早該分開　不該怪她

即使跟蹤你　來臨案發現場
牢牢看守著你　提防你搭上這一個她
下個她　都會趁我看不到誘惑你
明白如你要這樣易變心　哪到我害怕

就算她　跟你有段情
我也為你高興　用第三者身份見證
最不可靠是愛情　我們無人能得勝　再溫馨
仍不夠耐性　捱得到第四者　煞風景

當初喜歡你　其時你有別人
完全都因為我　才完結過去拋低了她
下個她　不過接替我當天那位置
情外情　轉了對象　別要太驚訝

沒有她　都會有別人
你我避免不過　混亂間將彼此錯過
有幾多故事最後　愛人仍然同一個　看清楚
誰都背叛過　誰亦曾被騙過

不知道　伴侶再換就更好
還是越來越退步　能讓路還是再睹
就算再三上訴　你爭我奪投進誰懷抱
誰話愛你註定　好心好報

第四者　跟你有段情
我也為你高興　外遇萬千燦爛像繁星
可惜那併發症　我們無人能得勝　再溫馨
仍不夠耐性　捱得到第五者　煞風景


sigh... just repeating this song for days... i guess i will not have a happy ending in this story...

need to fight to move on, need to be firm and strong

headbutt!!!

i dont know... i thought i could shake it off... and i have... for 95%... but the brain and the heart can never be on the same page...

what if things were different...what if we never met... then my life would be simple...

i feel like i need to lose this selected memory for me to go on.... can someone please hit me on the head?

swing...

before today, i was determined to finish what i started...

but news today just threw me back onto the other side of the fence... i was an afterthought... constantly being lied to... only to be revealed the truth after the dust settles...

to be frank...

i dont want to be your brother anymore... and maybe we can just be friends... friends of the very basic kind... at least that way i keep my promise i made to you... at least i will live with my integrity intact...

theres no price for honestly... too bad you, too bad for me, too bad for everyone...

logic vs emotions... / minimum buy in...

plain and simple... its between the 2 and i dont know which one is right...

Love should be illogical... and plans are unemotional...

i want to carry out my plan logically and be in love emotionally... but that sometimes the things that are most clear are hardest to get...

together with all this... can love really be free? i dont think i have the chips right now to play this game... waited for a while to get this chance... but if you don't have the chips... you're just on the outside looking in....

sad and depressing... but in front of you, i need to be strong, so when you lean on me... i'll be there for you...

lean??

sigh... today was what i thought to be a bad day... dont know why... maybe just things not going the way i wanted them to go... so i thought i'd reach out and try to get some support...

one thing i learned is that... dont lean on anyone... you could be there for someone when they need support... but what happens when you need a hand? people are just a little harder to find when that happens...

i thought i made some head way into my thought process... but i guess it was a pretty fragile process and now i've probably taken a few steps back...

who needs anyone to do their laundry when i can do them myself...