YO-YO of life / indecisive...

everything seems to start off with a high point, everything is nice and hopeful, with all sorts of possibility... then comes the quick decent, the realization that the hope in the beginning was starting to change and nothing was like before... things change...

then something else hopeful pops up... then the process will repeat itself...

there are times when something special happens, aka them YO-YO tricks... you get stuck at the bottom for much longer than usual and have a harder time getting back up OR something really great happens and it exceeds your original expectations!! YO-YO are fun to watch because of the constant up and down that happens, but it is probably very tiring to play... since the entire thing is held on to by one finger... must get really tiring after a while...
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man... cant seem to shake the feeling of wanting to go live and work in another country not call Canada, although i was born in Hong Kong, but i've pretty much grew up in Canada so this place is very comfortable for me... but having said that i think change is good sometimes, i feel that a change in living environment is good... when i am 60, i think it would be more rewarding knowing that i've lived in different places and having a chance to see whats happening in different parts of the world..

but then theres just too many things that i would have to let go if i were to go ... ahh.... dam decisions!!

but sometimes change need to happen just for the sake of change... change is like the stir stick that stirs things up when the sugar is settled on the bottom of your cup... you can't drink a coffee without a stir stick right?!?!? (although i'm not a coffee drinker, what would I know....)

holding on to the sand in your hands...

sometimes as they say, the good times go by much faster than they should...

i now have a new realization that when we are met with times of happiness we should make them last as long as we can... because once it is over they will become like a pile of sand which we hold in our hands... it will slowly slip thru our fingers until there is nothing left...

giving us all the more reason to make the good times last as long as we can and as unforgettable as we can, because if we don't the memory will slowly slip into nothingness ...